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random thoughts turned into a rant

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 3, 2007, 10:42 AM
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: linkin park
  • Eating: rice
  • Drinking: o.j.
To bond with others is in human nature, but why do some of us choose to live in solitude? We know in our hearts that being close to someone can warm the soul, but losing them can be to much to bear. We would rather die than to lose something that can’t be brought back, through physical or mental means. To not be able to touch another human who has touched your life so much, can be despair unmatched by others, and a memory can hurt the heart, when it feels like it is no longer there, so we try to forget. Stare at the moon, and pray for a person. It feels so right, but in a way, we wonder why we do it. We get so lost in logic, that we begin to forget that many things don’t have to have logic, for it is a force that can’t be explained. So why do people choose to live in solitude, for the one lifetime they possess? It is our minds, hearts, and souls dueling for reason, fighting in confusion, and wrestling with questioning, for we know not if we may have another chance in another life, and those who feel that this is the one life they shall ever live, it sometimes feels better to go through it with no pain. The soul searches itself, only to be guided by guesses and confusion. I often question the credibility of the souls advice, and seek answers from the heart, though it is just another enemy of the mind. Our consciousness and state of mind is believed by many to exists in all living creatures, but then why do all other creatures have the ability to go about life without questioning, reason, and logic. A lot of us believe that they just lack the brain power to be able to conjure such thoughts, but sometimes, it would be wise to have the minds and hearts of an “animal” raised up to “human” standards. When clearly thought through, we are all animals. We eat, sleep, and breath like any animal you may find outdoors. We are one in the same. To find any reason to challenge this is only furthering the narrow minded human perspective. The questioning becomes more intense and can create confusion. In the universe, question is the most used thought. This is known because nothing would have happened if there was never questioning. This is the thought that makes our society move at its rapid pace. The world appears to move faster and faster from humans lust to find answers. We want to know more, create more, discover more. This thought has developed into a gluttonous behavior as time marched on. Our everyday thoughts are shaping the world into what it currently is and what it will be. Many believe that the shape is one of doom, chaos, or just the end of life as we know it. Why they think this, it’s pretty simple. We can find some of the answers on something as simple as the news. All of this war, the innocent lives taken, ruthless murders, bombings, starvation, suicide, riots, global warming, disease…. the list can continue for quite some time. These events cause many an uneasy feeling, even in their everyday lives. They become paranoid and fearful. Many are left scared to even sleep. I see many who try to help, and bless their hearts for doing so, but I feel that more can be done. There are people who just play sports for a living and make more in a month than most make in a year. It makes no sense to get paid such a large amount of money just from playing. Insanity. There are constantly lotteries that offer as much as millions of dollars to a single person. Mind blowing. It just seems like so much money is wasted. Setting aside all of these crazy ways to blow money can benefit many others who truly do need it. We can feed other countries, help with illness, and shelter the homeless. The world is such a confusing place and that leads to my earlier point. The confusion and the question make up much of what is going on even at this very moment. If we can manage to try and improve the lifestyles of all people, we can probably accomplish more and develop into a better society. Sure, nothing can be perfect, but much can be done to shape our future into a more prosperous one. When will the madness come to a calm halt, and everything can be more relaxed and restful? It most likely never will, but dreaming is what keeps up morale and hopes I suppose. We all need dreams, no matter hoe far-fetched or impossible it may seem. Our very existence relies on this for if we have nothing we hope for, nothing we hope to accomplish…. What is the purpose for waking up in the morning? Our days will feel meaningless. Everyday will be a repeat of unhappiness, boredom, and wasted time. Go for the things that really matter in your life. Nothing is stronger than the will of a person who believes in themselves and their dreams. Nearly anything can be accomplished with a mentality such as this. That is what life is all about. Doing what makes you happy. Doing what makes your day feel fulfilled. Go with the flow of life and live it up. We all seek for our purpose. We really don’t have one except to make it whatever we want to be. Seek what you truly yearn for. All possibilities flow with the wind, and all that is required to catch one is reach for it and hold on to it. Never give up or be discouraged. It will only eat away at you very being until you feel nothing is left but a heart of broken dreams and unfulfilled desires. Left in a surrounding of darkness and sadness and never a hope of a brighter tomorrow. Every day has meaning and effects all of you future. No matter how small it may seem, you easily make a big difference and affect yourself and others. Be honest to yourself. You are person who can change the world. Who has the right to say what one is capable of? Only the person themselves. All concepts of thought are influenced from the outside, but there must also be a balance of it coming from the inside. Let yourself feel your own emotions, you own thoughts, and opinions. Humanity is a rather odd concept. Along with the constant thought of a perfect society among humans in the future. There is no way it can be done. Yes there is supposed to be possibilities for everything, but this is one of the exceptions. Nothing can be perfect. Nobody will ever be able to get along all the time, to agree on everything, never feel sadness and all of our other negative emotions.

(if none of this made any sense, no prob. they were random thoughts and i wrote it a while ago. sorry it was so long. i'm gonna try and write more though and see if i can properly finish. later peoples. peace!)

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  • Current Age: 17
  • Current Residence: Cedar Park, TX
  • Interests: poetry,art, photography, video games, play guitar, music.
  • Favourite movie: i like austin powers, donnie darko, saw, hostel, ace ventura, edward scissorhands, stuff like that.
  • Favourite band or musician: Journey if my fav. i like metallica, rob zombie, judas priest, kiss, utada hikaru, linkin park :)
  • Favourite genre of music: metal, rock, punk, techno, jpop
  • Favourite artist: Jhonen Vasquez
  • MP3 player of choice: one that works and holds all my songs and won't easily break. lol
  • Favourite game: DDR
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: I can't pick just one.
  • Tools of the Trade: just normal stuff. 0.5 mechanical pencil, sharpies, markers, colored pencils, and acrylic paint.

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~Netaya:iconNetaya: Jun 17, 2008, 12:16:31 PM Mood: Love
hi Natalia i miss u plus nina does 2 and all your friends at fitch :):lmao: :hug:

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I love Sasuke,L,Inuyasha and Ed!
~Omkar-knack:iconOmkar-knack: Jan 25, 2008, 3:52:55 AM
Hey that's a great pose could i make a sketch of it.
~Nazumor:iconNazumor: Aug 14, 2007, 5:05:47 PM
"Favorite Artist: Jhonen Vasquez."

Creator of Johnny the Homicidal Maniac and Invader Zim, I agree, he is awesome.

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Photographers are violent people, first they frame you, then they shoot you, then they hang you on their wall.
*Neoverseomega:iconNeoverseomega: Jul 12, 2007, 6:05:34 AM
Thanks for the faves! My critters rather appreciate the attention (give them half an excuse, and they behave like real hams). Was just browsing through your gallery - interesting work. Good compositions and very expressive!
~Dantes5thCircle:iconDantes5thCircle: Jul 10, 2007, 7:10:14 AM
Thank you so much for the fav luv. :D

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~Krystal~
~kaikyotu:iconkaikyotu: Jul 7, 2007, 6:08:29 PM Mood: Neutral
Well, whenever you get back, how were the fireworks?

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Even if things don't go your way, you have to learn to accept them and move on. Got it?
*Catastrophic-drag:iconCatastrophic-drag: Jul 5, 2007, 9:50:31 AM
I could have sworn that i was watching you...Oh well i can fix that :)

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SOYLENT GREEN IS PEOPLE!
!Ajagee24701:iconAjagee24701: Jul 4, 2007, 9:05:32 PM
Could you please go to the link below and vote for me? I am Jay be sure to vote for me Jay and please only vote for me.

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Thank you!

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~Hellien:iconHellien: Jul 3, 2007, 10:41:49 AM
Thanx for the comment ;)

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My website : [link]
~kaikyotu:iconkaikyotu: Jul 2, 2007, 8:27:42 PM
Hey, still around? How was your day? Sorry I left earlier so suddenly. I sent you a message elsewhere explaining what happened.

In any case, great drawings. I really like them. I am working on one right now, and when it is finished, I'll show you first to show you I can draw.

So rawr! Beware the Kirby of dance.


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Even if things don't go your way, you have to learn to accept them and move on. Got it?
*Catastrophic-drag:iconCatastrophic-drag: Jun 28, 2007, 9:15:36 PM
Welcome to DA! I better keep an eye on you :P :love:

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SOYLENT GREEN IS PEOPLE!
~kaikyotu:iconkaikyotu: Jun 28, 2007, 9:00:17 PM
Don't bother. I don't have anything up yet. I plan on putting up a new story I've been working on.

Also, despite the fact that I already said my name, just call me Kai now. I want to see if having everyone I know calling me Kai will let him take over my body completely. You know how Kai is my subconscious, right?

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Even if things don't go your way, you have to learn to accept them and move on. Got it?
~adorablenightmare:iconadorablenightmare: Jun 28, 2007, 8:57:55 PM Mood: Zest
yay! hey jason. sorry i couldn't make it to anime club today. i'm gonna check out your stuff
~kaikyotu:iconkaikyotu: Jun 28, 2007, 8:54:50 PM Mood: Neutral
Huh...I would have expected you to have had one of these already. Oh well. Good start. Better than mine in every way.

This be Jason, by the way. Just thought I'd stop in and say hello.

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Even if things don't go your way, you have to learn to accept them and move on. Got it?
*h-k-b:iconh-k-b: Jun 28, 2007, 8:11:42 PM
Hey! I really like your gallery so far. I'm gonna watch it ^.^ And welcome to DA!

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Please don't be afraid to comment on my drawings. I love critique, how else am I to get better?
~adorablenightmare:iconadorablenightmare: Jun 28, 2007, 8:00:13 AM Mood: Zest
I finally made a deviantart account and i really like it so far! think it's awesome and would love to hear what other people think about my drawings. peace!